Shattered!

Picking up the pieces...

While I laid await in my heart for God to show me where to fellowship, I started studying the word of God. At the time, I was working at a call center and got promoted from a regular Customer service representative (CSR) to a Quality Analyst (QA) where I work with CSR to improve their work quality and compliance to phone policies. I became more open, brave and eager to share the word of God and speak about His love for humanity. I begun encouraging others to open up to the Lord Jesus Christ and shared my born again experiences. Many listen but a few heeded. Nonetheless, I declared myself open for counselling and encouraging my reps if or when they became sad and pretty much just out of it. We all have bad days at work, right? Simultaneously, a friend of mine Mr. C. Wallace was most times in attendance when I would indulge in talks about the scriptures and how one might be saved. He showed much love and appreciation for the word and we some how, begun evangelizing together. It was amazing! He was and still is a comic all by himself. Lol! For this cause and more our bond grew and we became like brother and sister like, two pea in a pod. He had this calm, welcoming sound reasoning that I always admired. On top of that, he had been dating a wonderful young woman, now Mrs. Wallace, who did something I’d never forget. One morning as I boasted about heading to church on Sabbath, riding my high horse thinking she was in sin because she didn’t keep the Sabbath, she didn’t respond verbally but rather smiled at me. This smile was no ordinary smile. It gave me peace, it was welcoming and for the entire day and proceeding months i remembered that smile and yearned to know more about it. It wasn’t just a simple smile but rather one that reminded me about Christ. There was just something about it.

A decision to be made…

As I grew closer to the couple from training at our work place, I begun to experience change in my temperament without request to do so. An inward change was taking place from the glow they brought with them. Eventually, Mr. Wallace and I begun sharing the coaching of our reps and one day I was told that if been assigned to a new team. I had no idea then, that my now husband was a part of that team. As I continued to lay in wait for God’s leading, I encouraged him to seek the Lord. At that time, I wanted no relationship and I was on a mission to introduce souls to Christ. Eventually, I visited the church Mr and Mrs Wallace attended and found that the word was the main focus. I found that there was true worship, I found that there was little to no flesh among the attendees on that day. Persons were just worshiping freely and the Preacher encouraged us to live unto God, not man. To serve Christ not a day… And to leave sin unto glory. The message was solid. I wanted this. I wanted to grow in the word and focus on my salvation rather than an outward statistic. “I had to go back”, I said. I had to become a part. Initially, it was hard for my flesh because I was still entangled with the enjoyment of travel and social events frequently held at the COG 7th Day. Though I wasn’t well known or regarded as much, I enjoyed the gathering because I have always been deprived of same growing up. I was thinking, “am gonna miss being on the choir, am gonna miss youth events, Amma miss having many musicians for big musical praise and worship..” and the list goes on. It took me weeks after attending the IFDMI before I could truly let go off what I think people would say about me switching churches. I’ve heard many church folks there lambasting ex-members who decided to leave for whatever reason. It is not good for hearing some of the things they say about these people and so I was afraid to leave. The word came to me, you cannot serve two masters and it’s either you serve God in spirit or choose the flesh. I had to decide if really wanted God, just a satisfaction of flesh or pleasing others with staying in COG7th Day. They were gonna talk anyways. I decided to choose God. I decided to choose growth and I decided I wasn’t gonna please the flesh regardless of what they may say.

No Stranger…

Though I was in a different place physically, I felt like no stranger to those who were there at the time. I felt like family for it was not about the physical. Week after week and day after day I was being stripped of the flesh and learning how to truly operate on a spiritual level with the Lord. The Lord is a spirit and they that worship Him must worship in spirit and in truth.

This and more on Kingdom talk soon, until then… Seek good.

Yours truly

Chantel (LadyPeculiar)